Finding Clarity in the Fog of Depression and Anxiety
I began meditating ten years ago, below is my journey to meditation and a fulfilling, happy life.
I thought I had a wonderful life, great kids, beautiful house, attentive husband everything that money could buy, but I wasn't happy! I kept asking myself "What is wrong with you, you have everything you want, be happy". I started to become very anxious and stressed because I should be happy right???
I tried everything, going to counsellors, psychologists and psychiatrists, only for them to tell me that I was the most sane person they had met, so why wasn't I happy??? I found myself hopelessly lost in the depths of despair, having random panic attacks and developing chronic fatigue and displaying the symptoms of MS. I often said to myself, "What is going on here, I've always been a confident, outgoing, life of the party kind of girl, how could this happen to me"?
The day I found myself screaming at my kids for some minor issue was the day I realised I needed to change. I went out and borrowed countless personal growth books, dvd's and cd's, I attended workshops and totally changed my lifestyle.
I began meditating every day, the particular meditation that helped me the most was one in which you create a special safe place in your mind, my special place was in a jungle beside a waterfall, surrounded by nature and gentle animals, here I was totally accepted and free. I found that when I went to my special place during meditation I could think clearly, I developed the ability to trust my intuition and made some life changing decisions.
Now 10 years on I am a Life Coach & Personal Trainer and I conduct weekly meditation classes for my clients to ensure that they are given the time and space to "find themselves and the freedom of clarity". It is my passion to motivate and encourage people to achieve fulfilment and happiness in life and I believe that meditation is one of the most important tools in my toolbox.
Yours in happiness and health
Christopher's Meditation Story
Learning how to meditate was probably the single most important and life-changing thing I've ever done. I started meditating in 1995 after my mother invited me to do an 8 week meditation course with her.
I wasn't coping all that well with life at the time. I'd recently broken up with my girlfriend, I was failing some of my subjects at university, my health was average at best and I was very depressed.
I was reluctant to go to meditation classes at first, mainly because I was too depressed and too stressed to find the energy for them. I didn't really expect to get much out of meditation and I loathed the idea of having to find 20 minutes to meditate - twice a day no less!
To my surprise, I was actually quite diligent in my meditation practice, and it paid off. After three weeks, something clicked. I don't know exactly what happened, but all of a sudden I realized that I had discovered something really important to me...
Meditation was filling a gap in my life that nothing else had been able to satisfy. I began to relish my meditation sessions, and my experience of meditation rapidly deepened. I became calmer and more focussed, and somehow my whole life seemed to make more sense.
Over time, meditation awakened me to the spiritual nature of my being, a side of myself that had been clouded from view until that time. I was so excited about this new discovery that I threw myself into study - metaphysics, spirituality, psychology, theology - I totally absorbed myself in learning everything I could about the nature of my mind, my soul, and my relationship to the universe as a whole.
To cut a very long story short - the practise of meditation completely revolutionized the way I view life, and the way I live my life. It expanded my perspective and it gave me relief from depression. It gave me a great deal of clarity and mental power, which helped me over the years in my professional development and career progression. Meditation also helped me to open my heart and then connect with a wonderful life-partner.
Nothing gives me the same feeling of wholeness and deep calm that meditation does. It has awakened me to the vast reservoirs of peace within me, and it encourages me to help other people find that same peace. It's given my entire life a sense of purpose. I just couldn't imagine life without meditation.
Christopher Lloyd Clarke